as i held the pregnancy test in my hand my mind begain to race .. why me why ... just why .. i love alexander yet i was pregnant with the murder of my bestfriends child... Options begain to race in my mind what was i going to do .. im agaisnt abortion and i couldnt dare let anyone raise my child.. wanted or not.. i begain to cry as i relized the full irony of what was happening... this is probley becuase i just stood and watched if i had just tryed to help more this never would have happened sarah would still be alive.. this is all my fault... :(